Ok, I find this to be pretty funny. I found this blog after trying to start a new one. I had completely forgotten about it.
Last year I ran for a few months and then basically totally stopped. I can't even tell you why. I guess I was burnt out...maybe it was the heat? I don't know but we continued to do short races but backed out of the 1/2 marathon that we paid for in the fall. We ran the 5K instead.
I have kept up running a bit through the fall/winter but then about 3 months ago, I thought I would seriously give it a try again. My reason was that I was sad and anxious all the time. I didn't know what to do. I remembered that running helped with that so I started adding some short running to my week. I did something a little differently this time. I made myself run 6 days a week for 20 minutes. After a month I increased it to 25-30 minutes a day. Then in the 3rd month, I started looking at the marathon. Running became a habit!!
I forgot to mention that I feel so much better. I am still anxious and sad on occasion but I feel like I have found some peace through running. It is mine...something I have all to myself.
I am a mom to 2 very beautiful, bright extremely difficult little children who take every ounce of energy that I have. My son has autism and it adds a whole extra layer (or ten) of anxiety, frustration, worry, fear, and awe to parenting. I haven't found much for myself in the past 4 years of his life. Even when I found time to get away, I would do something for the family. Partly out of guilt and necessity (it needs to get done) but also because I just didn't have anything that I
wanted to do. I think I have finally found that for myself!
I am going to keep up with my training and write about it here. Our goal is San Francisco in July!! Yes, my husband has decided to run with me and I am really happy about it. I am training mostly alone but we will try and run our long runs together. So I get the the time to myself but also the time with him when our schedule permits.